you dived in,like only you could have.
you turned around.i saw you drive away into the distance and then you paused and came back.
i remember watching you sleep in the grey empty halls.
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the first time you were there ,was also the first time i saw your toes.i'd never seen your toes before.hospital sheets make bodies look delicate.white grey sheets.
i remember getting your papers copied,i remember keeping a tab of the counts.i learnt to cook.
i remember talking to myself all the time while riding to where you were.i learnt to ride the bike.
i started it off one night.i have a license now.
i remember your mother's voice.
i remember following the ambulance to the ward on the bike.
i remember the looks on your friend's faces.every time they were different.
you always wanted a pastry.
i remember riding behind you in the rain six hours straight.we went through green fields.the sky was grey.i watched out for sandy's blue shirt.
i remember watching out for lights.sandy's bike had no lights.
i remember the staircases we hid in.
the scooter kept us talking to each other.
i remember being the coward and you being the hero.
i let you go.
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i could see the colour because you were grey.